A Very Large Hole

My Two © Emily Shur

So, we made it and have seen what we came to see – The Grand Canyon. The Shurs are not a very adventurous people, so we kind of skirted the rim and saw the grandest of cracks from many different vantage points. It is big and beautiful and I doubt we scratched the surface, but as it has been in many family vacations of the past, we got the gist.

The past week has been an exercise in faith for me. I lost out on a few work things, any one of which would have made my day, week, month, or year. All of which I was anxiously waiting by the phone/computer to hear about. Alas, it wasn’t in the cards for me on any of those specific opportunities, and as always, there is no choice but to keep marching on. Sometimes it’s hard to keep brushing things off, especially when you may not feel that the good in the universe is balancing out with the not so good. My friend Nina wrote something a week or so ago that stuck with me (not to mention she used a picture of mine to illustrate her thoughts!). I agree with her that life, photographic and otherwise, so often boils down to someone taking a chance on you. One person believing in you. And so often, that one person is all you need.

The trip we are taking this week is my and the husband’s 60th birthday gift to my parents. So here I am, spending the week with the parents – two people that have always believed in me, the husband – someone who took a chance on me, and The Baroness – the one in whose eyes, I can do no wrong. Yeah, it’s pretty cold here in Grand Canyon, Arizona, and I had a shitty previous week, but there are bigger things out there than individual disappointments….like very, very big holes in the ground to stand around and look at with your peoples.

3 comments to A Very Large Hole

  • nina

    True That and Amen to that. I had one of those weeks too, but you just helped me shed the bad Mojo!

  • Michael Sebastian

    Emily, I hope November ends on a more positive feel for you.

    You are certainly farther along your art career than I am; but I feel what you are saying. It seems sometimes in the art world (especially compared to the highly precise, regimented world of my day job) that progress is like clambering up a slippery mud-hill. You scrabble and scrabble and slide down a few feet before gaining purchase and moving up a bit. And then you do it all over again.

    Brooks Jensen touched on stuff peripherally related to this sort of feeling here: http://lenswork.com/podcast/LW0567%20-%20Fear%20and%20the%20Source%20of%20Inspiration.mp3

    May not be your cup of tea, but there it is. Plus the podcast #568 that follows.

    Have a great Thanksgiving and keep those insightful, knowing images coming.

  • Jeff Singer

    I know how you feel about those missed jobs. I've had a few of those this month as well. I guess that's what makes this job so exciting.